I realize that no one in the gym PLACES weights on me. I make the conscious decision to PICK THEM UP...
...sometimes I think that the very weight - issues, challenges, situations, and circumstances - are weights that we put on ourselves and/or allow ourselves to deal with because we haven't made the decision not to pick them up. I know for me, with the weights that I have picked up that I then made myself to believe were put on me, there was a point sometime in the process where I could have decided that I didn't, wouldn't, and can't accept the weight. I just didn't make the decision, so therefore the weight that I chose not to deal with became a burden. It left me resentful, confused, hurt, perplexed, angry, ashamed, and disgusted with me - all ingredients that lead to, at least for me, a dark depression.
Funny thing is, I know that I'm not the only one...
...so I decided that I'm not picking up the weight anymore. Don't get it twisted: Weight is not the same as "responsibility". Weight is clearly that thing you dealing with that you allow to "rent space" in your mind. The very thing that you struggle with all because you won't say "NO!" to it. The very thing that leaves you feeling alone, miserable, and angry at God because you feel like He Himself has put it on you...
...I'm done with that...
...and you can be too...
...just as you made the decision to pick up the weight, now you need to make another decision which can be challenging and difficult, but can be done...
...put it down...
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